The Choice
I want you
Divine Man
From he moments
Before I even knew you
I've wanted you
I remember the night
I first noticed you
Connecting in dance
Colored in paint
Playing with my daughter
Feeling the inner rhythms
It was then
I made my first choice
It was then
I desired to know you
It was there
In our first embrace
That, though our lips did not touch
We kissed each other so deeply
As if every part of my life
My soul, my existence
Was kissed and held
We made love
In the silence
In the Erotic stillness
Of this first embrace
It was you I wanted
It has always been you
Each time we met
The desire to have you
Grew deeper and deeper
Ever more present
It was my soul's journey
To make myself unavailable
So that we may pray
Desire, Surrender
And know ourselves
More fully first
It was you I wanted
That day in the surf
With the deliciousness
Of your homemade pesto
It was you I desired
Crave
Longing with intensity
That day on the beach
Little girl blowing bubbles
As the sun set over the mountains
And we shared the embrace
Of our souls connecting
To the voice and guitar
Of Harmony and Melody
I made the choice
Long ago, dear man
When I chose to desire
Honesty first and foremost
It has been you, my love
Who rips out my heart
Tearing it to shreds
Then holding me
Watching me pull the pieces
Back together once more
It was always you, dear man
As we snuggle so closely
Painfully aching to be with you
And holding myself back
To dance with you in the
Push and pull dynamic
That has graced us with
A life extraordinary
Even in disconnection
You are here, next to me
In the rich, thick
Velveteen sense
Where tactile presence
Touches everything
I made a choice
A choice like no other
My choice to be with you
My choice to Love you
In the deepest surrender
My choice to love you
Through fear and persecution
My choice to hold you
And be held by you
My choice to release
Any anchor around my heart
And say Yes, Yes, yes
To this Gift of God!
The exquisite gift
To know love fully
You've penetrated me
Entering my heart
My soul
My breath
Every breath I breathe
Is my choice to merge with you
To humbly serve with you
The will of God
The choice to unite with you
I no longer have to explain
Throwing myself into your
Arms of fiery passion
Meeting you here
Again and again
I choose you, my love, I choose you
Gail Trojanowski
March 24, 2013
Divine Man
From he moments
Before I even knew you
I've wanted you
I remember the night
I first noticed you
Connecting in dance
Colored in paint
Playing with my daughter
Feeling the inner rhythms
It was then
I made my first choice
It was then
I desired to know you
It was there
In our first embrace
That, though our lips did not touch
We kissed each other so deeply
As if every part of my life
My soul, my existence
Was kissed and held
We made love
In the silence
In the Erotic stillness
Of this first embrace
It was you I wanted
It has always been you
Each time we met
The desire to have you
Grew deeper and deeper
Ever more present
It was my soul's journey
To make myself unavailable
So that we may pray
Desire, Surrender
And know ourselves
More fully first
It was you I wanted
That day in the surf
With the deliciousness
Of your homemade pesto
It was you I desired
Crave
Longing with intensity
That day on the beach
Little girl blowing bubbles
As the sun set over the mountains
And we shared the embrace
Of our souls connecting
To the voice and guitar
Of Harmony and Melody
I made the choice
Long ago, dear man
When I chose to desire
Honesty first and foremost
It has been you, my love
Who rips out my heart
Tearing it to shreds
Then holding me
Watching me pull the pieces
Back together once more
It was always you, dear man
As we snuggle so closely
Painfully aching to be with you
And holding myself back
To dance with you in the
Push and pull dynamic
That has graced us with
A life extraordinary
Even in disconnection
You are here, next to me
In the rich, thick
Velveteen sense
Where tactile presence
Touches everything
I made a choice
A choice like no other
My choice to be with you
My choice to Love you
In the deepest surrender
My choice to love you
Through fear and persecution
My choice to hold you
And be held by you
My choice to release
Any anchor around my heart
And say Yes, Yes, yes
To this Gift of God!
The exquisite gift
To know love fully
You've penetrated me
Entering my heart
My soul
My breath
Every breath I breathe
Is my choice to merge with you
To humbly serve with you
The will of God
The choice to unite with you
I no longer have to explain
Throwing myself into your
Arms of fiery passion
Meeting you here
Again and again
I choose you, my love, I choose you
Gail Trojanowski
March 24, 2013